Saturday, May 16, 2009,2:54 pm
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried.
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the Master so gently said, “Child, you must wait!”
“Wait?, you say, wait!” my indignant reply.
“Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is Your hand shortened? Or have You not heard?
By faith I have asked, and am claiming Your Word.”
“My future and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance, and You tell me to wait?
I’m needing a ‘yes,’ a go-ahead sign,
Or even a ‘no’ to which I can resign.”
“And Lord, You promised that if we believe
We need but to ask, as we shall receive.
And Lord, I’ve been asking, and this is my cry:
I’m weary of asking! I need a reply!”
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, “You must wait.”
So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut
And grumbled to God, “So, I’m waiting…for what?”
He seemed then to kneel and His eyes wept with mine,
And He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.
All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want…but, you wouldn’t know Me.”
“You’d not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You’d not know the power that I give to the faint;
You’d not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there;
You’d not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence were all you could see.”
“You’d never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You’d know that I give and I save … (for a start),
But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart.”
The flow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that’s beyond getting just what you asked
Of an infinite God, who makes what you have last.”
“You’d never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that ‘My grace is sufficient for thee.’
Your dreams for your loved ones overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss! if I lost what I’m doing in you!”
“So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me
And though oft may My answers seem terribly late,
My wisest of answers is still but to wait”
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i read this in sharyl's blog and i was just amazed.
stunned.
read it once, twice, three times.
drama night last night was pretty gooood.
saw a few familiar faces(:
people like xinlin, fadhil, peck hui, rachel and leonard.
their acting is pretty goood!
it was coool watching them there(:
but happiness doesnt last in my life man.
every pinch of joy i have is accompanied by 10kg of CRAP.
haha.
i'm so so so tired nowadays):
can't seem to catch a break.
last night, my dad just told my sis and i that our family has taken yet another blow financially.
they told my mum not to go back to zhonghua anymore ):
he told us, we dont have enough money for next month,
or to send my bro to uni.
no more holidays and what not.
i was sitting at the back of the car when he said this.
so they could not see the tears i tried so hard yet failed to hold back
whats happening! D:
Lord in these times i want to cling on tighter to You.
but when will these times end?
maybe in 2012. haha.
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